Today is a good day!

It's been a while again..

Wow what a journey this has been. I have had a rough time getting here but I finally am feeling good. I have had a really tough time the past couple weeks. I moved into my one bedroom. By the way no matter how well you think you are doing and how much you love the place, please take my advice and DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT move on the same street as an ex boyfriend. It's hard...

As many of you that are close to me part of the rough time was also due to me and my ex finally ending it for good. After all the pain I had put him through with my fears of committment. My last and final steroid indused breakup was the last he would take. He told me that, I didn't listen. Anyhow, in the end it is over. I am very sad.. My last two weeks have been rough. He has moved on and has a new person in his life. I am happy for him, and sad all in the same. It's amazing how much you don't realize what you had and what you wanted until it's gone. Crazy how life works like that. I will find someone, I am sure, it's just tough when you feel like you let "the one" get away. Someone is a very lucky girl.

It's amazing what an experience like this can actually do to a person in the end. I feel like a changed person. Part of which I am still trying to figure out. Coming out of this all and facing all the people that were there for me so much throughout and realizing, wow. I hope I can return that favor and give back to someone who needs it just the same.

So here I sit Wednesday 9/30/09 and I feel at peace. Yes my heart still hurts, but I got an amazing nights sleep for the first time in a long time. I finally feel okay.. it will all be okay.:)

My next scan won't be till the first of the year so till then I am able to put my mind at ease as well.

So with that the latest and greatest in the life of Holly. I love each and every one of you so much and am so lucky to have so many great people in my life!!!!

P.S. A new picture with actual hair coming back. Funny story about that on my next blog :)

XO,

Me