It's Saturday and I feel good.

Who would have thought, two days after treatment and I am still feeling good. Is this the creeper one that will get me 3 or 4 days later, or am I just lucky and number five came off easy for me. Let's hope that's the case. Either way I am going to get up and enjoy the day and see how it goes. I hope you all have a great day too.

That's all for me today!

XOXO

# 5 is done!!!!

I have been a big slacker I know. But the exciting thing is that # 5 chemo is done. To top it off I think it was the fastest day of chemo ever. Got there @ 8:30 saw the doc briefly and we were on our way. Come 2 o' clock I was done. Complete record time... I came straight home after since I was not feeling to hot took an Ativan and fell fast asleep. I woke up later that evening and I surprisingly felt okay. I know they say each treatment is a little different but this was great. So far this morning I am feeling okay as well. Just about to take my morning steroids though. My favorite part of this whole experience, NOT. Anyhow so with that we only have one more to go and I am set for a PET scan May 28th. This will show the doc if all the cancer is gone. They will still administer chemo # 6, but then HOLLY will be CANCER FREE. That will be one amazing thing to here.

Love you all, thanks so much for all your support. I couldn't have made it this far with out you.

XOXO,

Me

Big girls don't cry...

So I don't know what happened to me but for some reason I was an emotional wreck today. I had a really bad client to deal with on the phone and I kid you not I started balling when I got off the call. I continued in and out of tears for about 45 min after the call. I think a combination of just how big of a jerk the guy was and the drugs in my body made me act like an actual crazy cancer patient for about an hour. Once I finally calmed down my day went pretty well. At least physically I feel great! So with that I am off to play some Wii fit and to rest. 

Oh by the way I am so HAPPY that Manny is an idiot and the Dodgers are going to be hurting. Let's go Angels!!!!! (I know the game sucked last night, but it's still early) 

Here is a fun picture, forgive the fact that it's taken with a co-workers cell phone. I love how it looks like it was a photo edit job to remove the hair. The angle of the photo almost makes me look like a cone head. It's really not that pointy I promise guys. 

Till tommorrow!! 

Another GREAT day to be alive!!

Not much to say tonight besides I am feeling great! I wish I could say it will stay, but I know it won't. It's only temporary...it's only temporary. I know this of course, it's just so good to feel normal. Anyhow, let's hope the blood work comes back good tomorrow and the white count is up. If not I know the doctor will force me to get more of those stupid shots for boosting purposes. If not the next cycle will be delayed until they know my counts are up. So weird to think that you can be so unhealthy yet fell so good. Is that only because the bad days are so bad that it makes the good days feel so good. Something to ponder, I guess we will see when this is all over. Will my sick days when I am healthy again just be a joke. Hmmm... I wonder.

Leaving you with a photo that makes me laugh.. This is before I fully lost my hair. I wanted to see how the scarf would look on me. Notice how high on my head I wore it.. Forehead much! Got to love the self portrait photos..

Till next time,

XO

2 days later

I still reflect on the weekends events and think how inspiring it all was to me. I also sit and think, am I really that out of shape? My calves are still KILLING me. High heels today at work was not a smart morning thought. Although acupuncture and a good calve rub were just what the doctor ordered.

This week is a good week.. I feel exceptional, normal, myself.. only to know in the back of my mind, come next Thursday I will start all over again. The one thing that will allow me to go back in for treatment # 5 with my head held high is just that. It's treatment #5, there is only one more round after that, and so far Holly is winning the fight! :)

Good night to all, Happy Cinco De Mayo!

This was my first, but not last relay. The strength, courage, determination, and love was inspiring. I truly had an experience I will never forget. Yes, I was exhausted by the end, but like my current fight with cancer, the exhaustion felt in the end was worth every minute, and every lap. In the wee hours of the morning I found the strength to keep going in the luminated bags that lined the track. The want to re-light any that had faded and keep going till they were all guiding me brightly and the next member awoke to take my place. The tears shed, were tears of joy. To each of you who made me feel so grateful to meet you all. Though my journey still continues I know, especially now, because of everyone who touched me this weekend, I will get through this with flying colors and I will come out in the end stronger than ever. I can't wait to come back next year with that strength and be able to share it with someone else. Touch someone as I have been touched this weekend and say, I am a survivor!

Thank you all so much for helping me and sharing with me your stories of courage. You all have such amazing strength and perseverance! I love you all.

A big huge THANK YOU to all my friends and family for being there with me through this weekend and through my fight. Without you all I would not have the strength that I have. Each of you means so much to me and this weekend just was icing on the cake. I love you all more than words can ever say!!!

Holly Lapick

May 3, 2009 9:45 PM

There will be lots more to come!

This is just a start to keeping in touch with you all through my journey. I should have started this a long time ago, but I guess it's better late then never. Please stay tuned for lots of play by play from me. Hopefully it will help me to keep better in touch with you all through this.

Thank you all for your support!!

XOXO,

Holly